When he was about 20 years old, Christopher started going to gay bars. I felt like I just needed to get it out somehow.' 'All these feelings were kind of bubbling up in me, and I was keeping them held down. He decided to keep his feelings secret in hopes they would go away, but they didn't. 'But, I also noticed that I was attracted to the images of both the men and the women.' 'Those images just awoke something in me that I didn't know was there,' he says. That's when he started thinking maybe he was different.
When he was nine years old, Christopher saw pornography at a friend's house. 'I was picked on because I was maybe a little more effeminate. I wore glasses, so I was 'four eyes,'' he recalls. He wasn't good at sports like the other boys. He played piano and worked hard in school. 'Kids are always cruel, and they pick on kids for being different.'Ĭhristopher was small for his age. So even though we were here in America, we were still distinct,' he says. 'My parents really wanted to hold onto our Chinese heritage. Although he was born in the United States, Christopher is the son of Chinese immigrants, and he never felt like he fit in with his American classmates. But one day in a nurse's office, he found out just how vulnerable he was, and it shook his whole world. Christopher Yuan thought he was invincible. He was once a big-time drug dealer, and a big-time partier.
